Ordinary Girl with an Ordinary Blog

So recently things haven’t been so great for me. I have been scraping through and I have come out with a smile. Things are not sorted yet but I can finally see the bright light at the end of the tunnel. I have great friends I have realised over the last few weeks. Some who kick you up the butt when you are talking bullshit (you know who you are) and some who just pick you up when you are down (you know who you are too). I have plans, some long winded and will take some work and some I just need to instantly sort but hell its a Sunday! As I type I am awaiting my takeaway which I think I deserve after this long weekend and I have a nice bottle of wine chilling in the fridge. Double that with a chick flick and I am going to be a very happy Gemmie. Snuggle with my babes Loki & Neo and I wont be able to complain any more. I am getting back into photography and also looking back at what I can edit from the past.  So expect spam :D Looking for a new job and a new outlook on life. If anyone can provide the answers to the last request, then do so promptly :D But for now…its getting better. I am getting better and I feel as happiest as I can be in my situation. So on that note, I will leave you and I also a big thank you for reading my blog :D xxx

I dont think I have ever really been laid out with my heart visual with someone pumping it to keep me alive before. Now I am exaggerating intensely but this is how I feel today. 

When I look back and see myself 5 years ago, I expected to be someone focussed, ambitious, successful and happy. I am none of these now. Turning 27 in October I feel there must be more to live than living in a horrible house in an area I despise. In a job that is not making any money they have forced me part time. With no money to start again. Maybe I am too lazy, maybe I am just making too many mistakes but I am torn between packing up and starting again (done this a few too many times in life and it always seems to be when shit gets hard, I pack up and leave). Or grit my teeth and try to do something which changes life here right now. But what? I cant find another job. I cant afford to move. And I am trying with other things. 

I think it calls for change. I have changed my hair, my clothes, losing weight, being social again. Its not working. They promised a new pair of shoes would make my life better…Retail Therapy is A LIE!

I need to grow up and face the heat. Change needs to happen. I need to rant more. I need to stop being pushed back by people who don’t want change.  I need to be strong and willing to give as much as I can.

My goal: By the time I reach 30, I want to look back at these posts and laugh about my life lessons and where I am then :D I want to be happy and fulfilled. I want to be me. The person who I used to be and who is in fact still sitting inside DYING to get out…

P.S Sorry for rant :/

Hello,

I have been so slack with keeping up with my blog this month. I haven’t an excuse, not really been busy but alot of things are changing in my life. Not for the good sadly. Job has now shifted into part-time and I have way too much free time on my hands…I need to start up with my new hobbies. Photography is what I really want to focus on in the next few months and also I want to start painting again.

So this Saturday I experienced my first taste of Japanese food at Hanahana. It was lovely. The food was great, the drinks were following and the service was spot on. 

It was my friends Cristian and Matthews 26th birthday and it was great fun although I think quite a few people ended up with some egg on them due to the bad aim of the birthday boys….

So I ended up being that annoying person constantly taking pictures and getting a few middle fingers by the end of the night but practice makes perfect and I had some cracking models to work with…

I need hell of alot of practice yet but this is my favourite picture from the night.

So apart from ranting about stupid things and getting everyone down, this is my quick blog update! Feel free to send me any suggestions or any questions :)

P.S A little shoutout to my ex wife for fixing my blog…

A quick blog before it gets too late for people’s memory! I was there! The night when Till Lindermann shot his load all over his audience. I got it full blast in the face too…

First time I have ever seen Rammstein live and also being tipped off as their last performances ever. The pyromatics and the fireworks were intense, something I have never seen in my lifetime. I was quite far from the stage but even where I stood, I felt the heat. Speaking to a photographer friend who was situated besides the stage informed me that he no longer has eyebrows. 

The performance entailed more than I expected. It wasn’t just a band performing their songs. They played out the songs. They lived the songs and we joined in. The set up was sheer genius and had everyone guessing.

Was it the best band I have ever seen? Shockingly No2. ACDC I doubt will ever be beaten. They had a god damn train! Id pick a train over a penis any day…. but for me, I would say 9/10 marks…